"I am your joy and your regret.
I am your fury and your elation.
I am your yearning and your sweat.
I am your faithless and your religion."

********************************************************

This hellish week is finally over.

Last Friday, I greeted the morning sick and feeling like crap. It lasted the entire weekend and into this week. Monday I barely made it through the whole day at work and I had to stay home Tuesday because I didn't want a repeat of the day before. It's finally going away, almost as quickly as it came. Still coughing, but it's tolerable.

Jon's father went in for knee surgery on Wednesday and should be home some time this weekend. He's going to be out of work for a while as he recovers, so we're going to have to do more than usual here. Depending on when his father can go back to work, we may have to put off moving. Hopefully all will be well though, and we can be out on our own come May.

Now for the real reason I'm writing this entry.
I have very little creativity left, and no energy after work with which to work on a new project. I want to do another photomanipulation, but what is the point anymore?
I've been here for five years now, and for the last three, the time between my submissions is getting longer and longer. I don't have the patience for this anymore. For the first time, I actually had to unwatch someone I love very dearly because his journals and polls made me avoid looking in my inbox. This place has brought me nothing but hopelessness and resentment as of late. dA has gotten impersonal and too massive for my tastes. We're getting more and more trolls and flamers and art-thieves and general assholes every day. So if I'm not around to drop my monthly journal for a while, this is why. I just can't do this anymore.
You all have me on your Myspace friends. At least, those few of you who actually give a damn about me (=eskimoblueboy and =Ex1 are the sole exceptions). You can find me there. I may reply to comments for a couple of more days, but I don't think I'll be here much longer.

~Final Note~
I just wanted to let you guys know that this moratorium probably won't be a permanent thing. At some point, I'm sure things will get better and I'll be able to create again, and hopefully be active here again without getting stressed out. But I don't see that happening any time within the next few months. Perhaps after we've moved and I can finally start a fresh chapter instead of wallowing in this stagnant rut. Sometimes one just needs to step back and take a break, even from a place that has brought them so much joy and so many amazing friends over the years.

Take care.

[Rant Ended]


********************************************************
~Clubs~

********************************************************
~My Favorite Stock Goddesses~